rebel in the making

Do not wait for leaders;

do it alone, person to person - Mother Teresa

i had a small chat with a friend... her frustration with bureaucracy left her tired and demotivated. It's always easy to do a small cost-benefit analysis in our head - a la what the economists prefer to think of us ... unless your action brings you utility, you don't undertake it. do we fully understand what our objective (function) is? i feel muddled frequently, what i had envisioned to bring me happiness usually is accompanied by a journey that seems onerous, the passage of seeking usually leaves me tired and i would time and again evaluate my goal - "is it worth it?" the state of mind during this evaluation is often non-optimistic... i wonder if i can keep my motivation up if i make it a personal quest to demolish the walls bureaucracy built - to not have to wait for my leaders to give me the go-ahead signals, to do what is right instead of what they think is right (for them, usually), to derive pleasure from knowing the fact that i can make a chip that would one day lead to a successful demolition. to be the type of team player that works "person to person" to achieve what the base needs and not simply what the apex of the pyramid desires.