02 November 2006

a handful of tranquility

I realize a change in myself. I realize that I have given time to handling "emergencies" than other life-sustaining activities. I realize that I care a lot about what others think of me. I realize that I fear disappointing people whom I trust, admire and love. I realize that I hate myself sometimes for being imperfect. I realize that my favorite book in the Bible has always been Ecclesiastes...

"Then I saw all the labor and achievement that is the envy of a man's neighbor. This also is vanity and a striving after wind...Better is a handful, with tranquility, than two handfuls with labor and chasing after wind."

I need to know what good labor is. I need to relearn how to walk and then I need to learn what to chase after...

~exp.

2 comments:

Anonymous said...

Imperfect beauty! That's what I always say....And you are beautiful even if you think you are imperfect sometimes. ;-)

Anonymous said...

awww, you are always a great friend :)